I've been battling lingering feelings from my ex that I was dating before my 18th birthday and found out he was cheating with me for the girl he left me for, then sometime before Christmas he told me they broke up or whatever, and I've been kinda.. unable to forget him and I know I should and just move on, cause I don't need him.. but.. the heart wants what it wants, as Selena Gomez's song says, which has been replying over and over in my head lately. My heart wants him, thinks about him.. needs him.. I miss him. Him only. I want someone else cause I know if we even talked about getting back together, he wouldn't be happy.. but.. guys are dicks. Just an obvious saying, every single fucking guy has been a dick to me, unless you're on here, then it's a different story. Every guy I've met in person seems to think I'm a little toy and likes to bully and push me around, or just ignore me. I don't get you 'men'. I’m broken, and dangerous. Sick of people, sick of boys. I want to scream, yell, and punch them, even though I’m not that kind of person. I’ve taken as much pain and suffering as I can handle, so if you want to fuck with me, come get me. Cause I’m gonna win.
On top of that, My sister was here for Christmas and now she's at home and got in a car accident. Luckily nothing's broken, she's sore all over with a mild concussion. I was really worried all day today working on a project in class, and I wanted to cry when I heard what happened. I miss her with my entire heart and soul. I wanted to see her but she's 12-16 hours away now.. I don't know if she'll see this, but I want to draw her shiny minior Lampsi with a top hat. It's gonna be fun and interesting, really hope it'll cheer her up. Any ideas what a minior might say to someone lol? Anyways, if you guys want, send some love my sister's way <3 She doesn't have a dA, but she does have a tumblr if anyone wants to see it. Just ask.
I'm heading to bed now since it's late, hope you all have a great night and great day tomorrow.
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